Mundo's Mind

On day number 3 I find myself awake in bed having been in this state since about 2am. I shouldn't be complaining though as I do consider this quite an improvement to the adjustment curve. So far this is the first night in which I haven't had a full nights rest so all things considered it ain't too bad. But as I lie down here I guess I should tske it as opportunity to get some thoughts down on one of my preferred mediums of thought. So I was stopping to think about the things that I care about in this life of mine. Family, happiness, good times, companionship, friends, being able to do the things that I want to do, free thought, dreaming, sharing, observation, growing, learning, but what do I really want to do. The simple in all of this is that I just want to keep going along with things and see what opportunities present themselves along the way. I mean that sounds enough like me more of a generally passive approach to things and then I just get really involved with the things that I care about in life. Its not a competition and I'm not trying to live up to any standard. I'm trying to be the best mundo I know how to be. The good part about all of this I feel is that for the most part I'm staying true to me. Obviously we change and we grow as time moves along but we find a certain comfort in who we are as people. No different in what me abd eric discussed the other day. I mean more often than not whether we admit it or not we trust ourselves to go with what we know. It changes with different characters as I've found myself to be but I think the message is clear and pretty consistent. I'm never really pushing me if anything I share my life as much as others are willing to listen, my ideals are the platform upon which I stand. I believe that we have greater effect on things than we believe and that a lot of the time the things we want to control are things that we simply cannot. The dreams and hopes we hold as individuals are a mixture of things. While they are inherently ours their sources come from a multitude of places, family, friends, parents, partners, television, movies, media, instances, moments, and all of them are in some way shape or form linked back to you. It is in our history we find the guidelines for which with to move forward with our future. And then hopefully somewhere in all of that we are able to stop and realize that there is more learning to do along the way. If anything don't be afraid of that. Hold onto the fact that we as a people and more importantly as individuals have the ability to change, redefine, learn, refine. But our natural tendencies as human beings is to simply revert back to our natural forms. We are afterall creatures of habit. And so in it all we simply must just continue to be. And in that maybe we can figure what it is we're supposed to be doing in all this mess.