Mundo's Mind

wow...its march already....where's all the time gone....it seems like i'm in time warp when i'm here in santa cruz....like time just floats by as i live week(end) to week(end)...i wish i had a better grip on where things were going, but i guess the bright side of it all is that i want to and think im going somewhere and hopefully in the right direction....i dont want to be naive as to say that i know im going somewhere but in some ways i do....i guess i dont want to jinx it or anything like that.....expect the best and prepare for the worst i guess....anyhow i think in someways i really am starting to get a hold of this whole project manager thing....there's things i like and dislike about, but if you ask me about it as whole i would have to say its ok for now and that im looking for something better...like being a musician or writer or director or something of that sort....maybe on the side....once i get all this other shit organized....sometimes i wish i could just not work for a while, i guess thats what vacations are for....this is how the real world is supposed to be i guess....dont let it control you though is the best thought that comes to mind now....work is just a tool in life...for most its a means to an end....its a bonus when you can like what you do....but inevitably does work always just boil down to being that work?....its hard to imagine that in some instances....but for the average joe with the average job how true is it really....i honestly think it's something in life that we owe ourselves when possible of course...or even maybe when it seems like its not.....im not saying that you have to go for your dream job today, for some thats being in some type of celebrity position....but it is important to remember that it is a journey that you must choose to embark on....take the steps, make the effort, say to yourself what it is, where it is you truly want to be in life...and then just go for it i suppose....i want to say that i am everyday but sometimes i cant help but feel that im not....i know one thing for sure and that i will only stay here for as long as i HAVE to...i have to be smart and realistic about it too...but maybe not TOO realistic either....its important to dream and wonder and hope and want....now what to with these thoughts and emotions....something i hope, something better than just letting them linger and be forgotten about for a while (cause if its true...it wont go away)...i just want to share my ideas and thoughts...i think thats my dream, past, present and future...i want you to just stop and listen maybe think relax a little sit down and let your legs get brittle because this is my dream not the glitz and glory just an opportunity to tell you my story about whatever it is i choose to say but ill just leave at that for now with promises of moe another day...