Mundo's Mind

and I'm starting my life now....in some ways yes and in some ways no....somethings are on hold as I figure other parts of the puzzle....you want everything to work out now but it's hard to accept some things in life just have to wait....happiness shouldn't wait...complete hapiness is hard to achieve but it's something worth striving for....so many times you hear people wanting all these things which is great some can do it and some can't....the reality of it all is that we all get there with hard work, desire, and most importantly but at the same time different form case to case...time...the great varable of man....I'm happy because I have good people surrounding me in my life....at the same time there's still more people to meet I imagine and there's people along the way that I don't necessarily need but miss....I find it hard to admit sometimes but damn, just damn I guess, it gives me goosebumps when I just thought of it then....but I know she makes me happy in ways I can't imagine....I'll be the first to say this is truly a difficult given all the circumstances...even more difficult than when she was at school because we knew for the most part what was going to happen....but I'm just waiting and wanting and hoping and wishing, but always trying I think...I want to see her know how much she means to me again....I know I always say I do the little things...which is true but at the same time I know I'm a lazy guy....I'll admit it...But she's worth it not that its even really a sacrafice, its just I'm freakin lazy...and sometimes don't really think about it sometimes.....but I know because she tells and because, well just because....that she just wants to hear it sometimes...anyhow thas it for now...I think its bout time I got off my lazy butt and left her a message..ok.....First question is why do I think about this....First and last answer really is because I love her....And thats all that really matters...I can break it down further and then loop it back to the whole doing what I want to do crap, but really that can all be true and probably is, but thing that matters to me the "deal breaker" well not a deal but the thing that makes this all possible is simply that, I love her for her