Mundo's Mind

damn...I feel like I have so many things potentially going on my life. right now things are pretty stable and systematic. work and workout...tv and talking to steph..weekends always function as a good change of pace though...I guess what I mean about potentially is number one and foremost the whole work thing. I don't where this adventure is gonna plop me down. The stockton job seems cool but I don't know I don't want to go to Stockton everyday. THe biggest upside to it is the work I could be doing. Sony entices me the most, san Diego..and it's SOny think of the potential there. With MassELEC I feel the absolute most comfortable. Like I feel its a place where I can really get off to the start I've wanted. I can base myself in the city still, work in San Leandro, and still have the opportunity to travel because the work I'll hopefully be doing will require it. Lastly there's the State jobs and of course PG&E security and the ability to stay at home and build myself up more to the point that I can do things I need to do, knowing that I have the initial shelter of home to fall back in to...i dunno, I guess in a lot of ways there will be decisions that will be made for me, not that I don't have control...but some things are just out of your hands...and then there's the whole thing in the back of my head...I guess it's just been there so long that I'm just used to having it there. but I do in a way I guess..maybe it's just that desire to know, a sense of closure, that might just open up more than I could imagine....i guess we'll see...that too will be answered as time goes on, I'm sure...eventually...anyhow I'm ready to just take a break this weekend...just chill and kick it finally...no driving anywhere or big plans really, just gotta be there like I always am...btw I haven't said it on this thing here so let me state it so I can read this over and oer again...I love steph...she's the caretaker that needs to be taken care of too...thas wut I lvoe about it we constantly interchange roles...not like you see a lot in society where things are so defined...we're free, fresh, and fun...and on top of it all it's soooo easy to be with her...like effortless...even though I know, but thas just me and she knows and regardless of how many times she'll say you don;t do this anymore I still do kinda, in my own way...which is cool because I think most the time she just knows...peace..thanks